Tuesday, October 27, 2020

My End Of Year Wish (2020)

 My End Of Year Wish


A waste of time
And yet
All that is said
Is early in hopes it is read
By the somebody
Somewhere
Who can help me along
As I can't write this song
Every time that I try
I find that I cry
Another piece of me dies
So I'll just ask the universe
I've been stuck for years
Trying through tears
With nary a notice
And people needn't see
I just want to be free
And they'd know that I'm okay
That everything's fine
For really reals this time
I don't need beyond my dreams fame or riches
No calls on any demons or witches
Success though
To not be a burden
To not be a worry or bother
To make smile my mother and father
For the care from a coldish type world
That never expected me to get the girl
I probably won't
This is probably stupid
But this probably won't even be seen
If you knew my past, you'd know what I mean
But this is my wish
My end of year wish



Sunday, September 13, 2020

Another One...

 Another One...


I'm staring at another blank page
Okay, it's actually a screen
And it doesn't matter what it's filled with
You know what I mean?
Because no matter the written word
Or even ones I think
It always seems to end the same
And then I take a drink
I know it's pretty corny
That I think it's so dang clever
I want to see you smile
For ever and ever and ever
I don't know how to proceed
I kinda wish this was a song
Maybe it'd at least sound good
'Cause everything else feels wrong
I don't know what there is to say
I guess I'm not that deep
Just another random guy
You might see on the street
As Well, I guess there is one thing
That might be worth a mention
Of course, most would say it's so absurd
And doesn't deserve the tension
I think I may be cursed
I know the problems in my life are my fault
But there's something else
Something more
Keeping me back
And now the thoughts all halt!



Friday, September 11, 2020

Out of the Way

Out of the Way


I think I'm gonna be selfish
Right now
But after some lines
I'm gonna take a bow
You see
I've tried
And now I'm just tired
I used to be fired up
To take on the world
To get the dream girl
To make people smile
But
None of it matters
It always seems that way
I've tried the dream route
I've tried the real root
Neither seems to be
Meant for me
And I once thought I was special
Still my friends all ran away
I changed my tactics
But they never want to stay
Now my family has outgrown me
They want me to move on
But my life is just a nightmare
My heart's already gone
And I have nowhere to go
I can't believe in myself
I can see no light
Maybe they'd all be better off without me
Dragging them down
Into the ground
Guess I'm not a good me
Will I ever be seen
Will people hear what I have to say
Will it ever mean anything
Or should I maybe just
Continue to stay out of the way

And now I bow and say goodnight!




Thursday, September 3, 2020

The Call of an Open Mind

The Call of an Open Mind


No one really gets time
People say they do
But to use the language of the streets
They be lyin'
It's not so hard to see
What's going on
People everywhere
Are afraid of being wrong
There's always an answer
Needing to be found
But those who sink
Are not always drown
All of the theories
Models and maths
Will never reveal
The whole picture series
Written by time
So line by line
People can whine
It doesn't make sense
That's the call of an open mind



Monday, August 31, 2020

Stop The Sillybashing

Stop The Sillybashing

It's time for it to end
Sillly isn't bad
It isn't meant to offend
If it's not for serious
Then it's not worth your time
But it is worth your derision?
So where's the line?
Things must be classy
And not too low
The thing is some people's low
Is as high as they'll go
We must use curses
And a gravelly voice
As if that matters
There's no real choice
The decisions been made
A die already cast
Some silly parade
Is a dream of the past
Silly is honest
Silly is pure
When the blues get you down
Silly is the cure
The world is big
Harsh at times
That's why there is silly
And really dope rhymes
So don't bash it out
Oh ye, haters of mirth
There's silly for you
So give a wide berth



The Crazy Ones

The Crazy Ones

Not a one really cares
They don't even notice
It's not malice
Or a way to spread grief
We don't have the loudest voice
And everyone else is always talking
So how can we even be heard
Let's dream of a day
Where they see our pain
And somebody cares
Outside of oneself
Where there is warmth
The tingles that travel
Up the spine
Into an improbable world
Instead of a cold planet
Pulling back to a cold realism
Where everyone's words are important
Except for yours an mine
We are but the crazy ones...



Tuesday, August 18, 2020

The One Thing

The One Thing


I'm probably not the face
They all want to see
Sometimes in life
You must be the person you were meant to be
No one can see the 
Passage of time
So why blame yourself
When you haven't committed the crime
Maybe they won't want you
And maybe they won't need you
They may never even dance to your songs
Which took forever to create
And you were told you not to take that long
So why try
Well, maybe someday, somewhere
There's a heart like mine
That will be touched
Will understand
Will smile knowing
I'm out of my mind
But it all means something
And that is the one thing
That really matters


Friday, July 10, 2020

Tones of Triumph (Shortform Poetry Contest Entry 7-10-2020)

Tones of Triumph (Shortform Poetry Contest Entry 7-10-2020)


I shall embark
On this brand, new journey
Well
New to me
Not to the world
Which is concerning
Can it be liked?
Will it even work?
If I don't try
I may never know.
And one must never say never!



NOTE: This poem was entered into the Shortform Poetry Contest at Button Poetry on 7-10-2020. The poetry contest asks you to enter works of less than 250 characters including spaces... which kinda explains why this is so short!

Tuesday, June 16, 2020

Words Mean Something

Words Mean Something


Do these words mean anything
What about
If you choose to sing them
Would anybody listen
Would anybody try to
The theory is no
And that's just how things go
Right
No
You're wrong
This is a poem not a song
No matter how you doll it up
Make it cute as a button
So much that it will hurt
When you say something curt
Because words still mean something
No one can know what futures bring
Silly rhymes
Don't lie ahead
Stay sad and serious
A smiling face deserves a cuss
And you may never see the humor
Okay Boomer
That wasn't used right
But at least there was light
You never even saw it happening
The whole internet is there
But you only used Bing
If I thought I could
I would sing
A taunt
Right now
Though I'd probably screw it up somehow
Words are often quite tricky
Even words like sticky
Which can be quite icky
But words mean something


Chicken of Doom

Chicken of Doom


The line is lost in time
Ready to be called a crime
Solved like slime
In a little tin jar
But you don't know 
How far you have to run
You can't pun your way out of this one
The truth is told
Paths are clear
It shouldn't take
More than a year
Or a life
Deep cuts of a knife
Look at every useful body
Maybe then you'll see
There's no useful bits for free
Just trash
To be discarded
Broken-hearted
Bits of
Everything overlooked
And under-cooked
Like the chicken that was promised
But never delivered upon
So as anticipation
Pulls into the station
A hesitation fills the room
Can the chicken ever be done
Or was this life just doomed?


Monday, June 8, 2020

The Dark Cape's Tree

The Dark Cape's Tree


Lightning crashes over the dark cape
Leading to a boulders fat
That tumbles down the mountain
Did the lightning make it fall
Or was it not secure at all
It rolled down the hill like a playful ball
And there may have been no stopping it
But the boulder
Bulldozed
Also a tree
Taking away
A small beauty
Removing the capes claim to fame
Not that it was noticed
Yet had it been
The tree would be
A fame claim
All the world would see
A bright-like hope
With the shape of a tree
Yet the tree did flee
With the boulder bulldozer
So nobody will know the dark cape's secret
No harm, no foul
And the bareness there now
Doesn't mean much to anybody



To Watch You

To Watch You


Where are you
I dreamed I dreamed about you
But you're not here
Which I noticed with my notice balls
Some call them eyes
Now I'm feeling very small
As that wasn't the plan
To watch you
Shoot into the sunset
Into a sea of swirling stars
Leaving lots of scars
On my heart
And my head
Saying words to me
Like "you're dead"
Or "white bread"
They sound so the same
I always get them confused
They line up in rows of twos
Then I'm looking for my shoes again
There is no knowing
Like boat rowing
But you've got to keep going
'Cause now you're glowing
And the world deserves to see you
I always thought I'd be there too
Yet here I am


Thursday, June 4, 2020

Words Can Hurt

Words Can Hurt


It hurts me that you'd say I am evil
That having different thoughts
Makes me less than other people
It also hurts me that you think I have some privilege
That I'm just not sharing with you
Well, it's not true
Almost thirty-six years
Gave me nothing to show
Working hard
Through pain and blood flow
It's not anything close
But even the notion
Sends to me an ocean
Destroying my heart
Tearing me apart
And you think it's all right to
That's the problem
I don't one hundred percent agree with you
And that's enough to
Write me off
And what about the hundreds of millions
Of others
Did you ever think that they might want a say
Or would you turn your supposedly open mind away?
Fight for the rights
And what you want to see
But please stop telling me
What you think I am
When you never gave me a chance
And expect me to join the dance
When I don't know the steps
You're just doing what you gotta do I guess
But when I am myself
I won't be that toy upon your shelf
I am not evil
Or Irredeemable
Or a disgusting abuser of everything good
Please see what you're doing
I wish that you would
Just because someone doesn't say a few words
Doesn't mean they don't believe
No one should lose
When they don't even speak



Tuesday, June 2, 2020

A Different Path

A Different Path


We are free to choose
The winning side
Or if we all will lose
But the winning side
Is full of pomp
And by choosing that
We lose
Well
I don't wanna play the game
Sides don't really matter anyway
And people are suffering
No matter what they say
And if you chase the one that got away
Is it really moving forward
As they say
If they'd all just look
From upside down
They might see
That they've all been kinda crazy
And I would tell the
But it turns out that I'm just lazy
I guess I'm the problem
I am evil
And some won't go that far
But who I choose
Might cause a riot
And to me
That's just bizarre
Isn't there something better than throwing blame
If you're so smart and enlightened
Then maybe you should light that flame
And don't turns people
Into causes
Everyone
Is a person
Deserves applauses
Feels the pain
And the disdain
It isn't about agreeing
What you're seeing
Or the things that you post online
Just be who you want to see
It's what make sense to me


Monday, May 25, 2020

Lift Them Up

Lift Them Up


Stop telling me a positive
Is negative
Because people don't want to hear it
People shouldn't have to fear
It all gets worse
When you stoke that fire
We just need hope because
So little is out there
How could anyone dare
Share that poison
People need a laugh
Maybe it's not your job
You just share the reported stories
Not the happiness and the glories
To that I must say "Sorry,
That's not how we do things here!"
Lift them up
As they say
It's the beginning of a bright, new day
And if she wants to join me she can
But if I'm alone
I'll do my best
And maybe then
Everybody
Will find a smile
Instead of getting riled
By the darkest thoughts
Everyone thinks they want


Saturday, May 23, 2020

Playing By The Rules

Playing By The Rules


When they said
"Play by the rules"
I honestly thought
They weren't making fools
I also believed
They'd give me the tools
And I wouldn't have to fight
To be
Alive
But it's only true
If you're one of the few
And people see you
What if you're unseen
You work hard
But have never been
Acknowledged
And most likely
Will never be
The words of comfort
Are only your own
To think about that
Cuts down to the bone
You Love so much
It hurts your heart zone
It's not alright
May there be a light
For you
A real one
With all the happiness and fun
You deserve for
Playing by the rules




Monday, April 20, 2020

Non-Rhyming Babblethon

Non-Rhyming Babblethon


Always
Be
Carrying
Dragon
Eggs
For
Guarding
Hysterical
Iconic
Justified
Karate
Lame
Moles
Need
Only
Potent
Qualifications
Read
Sadly
To
Utter
Woeful
Xeroxes
Yelling
Zeal


Monday, April 6, 2020

Worth Fighting For

Worth Fighting For


I want to show the world
I can do something great
Something they'd notice
That they preferably wouldn't hate
Something they'd talk about
For years and years
It'd leave a mark
And cause so many tears
Of joy
And boy
Oh boy
What that something would be
I's Love it
When people finally saw
What I wanted them to see
When I posted the post
People's be like
MAAAAAAAN
That's really cool
I wish I had that plan
And the girl of my dreams
Would finally see
I'm not just an empty space
Who watches TV
Waiting and wishing
Wishing and dreaming
Dreaming that I could find the right words
Say them the right way
And finally get
To feeling okay
I'm tired of the nothing
I'm ready for something more
I'm asking you to not stop me
Can I be worth fighting for?


And while we're on the subject
Can it be okay to rhyme again?


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Monday, March 2, 2020

Treat A Damaged Soul

Blurgandyplop!
It all comes screaming
Out at once
And there's naught can be done
This is no fun
They say
So they click away
After trials and errors
It really doesn't matter
If I'm there or not
Who has been upsot by this
All this is
Another mess
That I'm taking part in
The timing was right
But the curve had been thrown
With nothing to do
The boy ends up alone again
Wishing
Hoping
Praying
All that good
And all that energy
Has been for
Something positive
Happy happy
Please don't let him
Fall away
With mighty voices
You always say
We work for the weak who've fallen hard
How is it right to not
Lift up a damaged soul


A Chance To Dream

Most nights
I won't remember my dreams
But in the morning
I'll wake up to find you there
In my head
Or my mind
Whatever
You're so fair
And so kind
Happy to just be alive
Have a good day
Is a thing that we say
As the birds chirp merrily onward
To get on with this date
Is a task that can wait
As alarms activate again
Once more
Yet with gentle talk of snooze
It resets it's fuse
For a few precious moments
However
It's never the same
I can't go back
You aren't there
And you never were
This is an outrage
How am I meant to keep going
When my biggest dream is gone?
I might as well get up
Though it doesn't seem...
Wait!
WAIT! WAIT!
WAIT! WAIT! WAIT!
I can wake up!
There's a state I cannot wait for!
Today I hope to reach her!
YES!
But tonight
Maybe I'll dream of her!
And maybe she'll also dream of me...



Wednesday, January 29, 2020

I Still Fall

So long after I still fall
Into your eyes
I know
I know
The point is less
But many nights of cries
Lead to thoughts
Of "What if?"
And imagination gone mad
While the world moves on
With no remorse
Not even a tad
And I hope
And I'm sure
All that she ever wanted
Will come to pass
It'd just be nice
If I had
Something to fall into
Too


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Thursday, January 9, 2020

The Plague Thieves Ending

These poems are meant to go more in detail on a video I made called The Plague Thieves, so they might not make much sense which is pretty on brand for me... but still... you might get more out of these works if you cheeked out the video! (https://youtu.be/a4T64L7B3W4)


Two men
Thick as thieves
Explore a tomb
Ancient evil awaits the alarm
And once it comes
All is well
For evil
And plague
And demons from beyond
Lives are changed
World's destroyed
Do they care?
Probably not
If it isn't shiny
But what is the point if nothing works?
So the hieves return
To fix thier folly
As only the dishonest can
A battle of dead
Soldiers of dread
Can never win
Against the trueness of men
Even against the odds
Victory can always be found
And a spark of light
Ends the blight
That has spread forth from the town
But this story's not done
There's no fame to be had
Just a debt
For deeds done





I realized this poem didn't actually go very deep into the final battle which was really the point...





Two men
And a demon
Do battle
Fighting the night
Away in a tomb
Darkness and fire
Deeds to inspire
A way to win
The only way
Is the shedding of blood
Trudging throught mud
To find a way
A single weakness
A breath of hope
Sparks from a sword
The most special sword
Cracking against an unexceptional rock
Is enough to bring down a demon
But is that enough
To tame a heart of darkness?


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